What It Means to Come Out as Non-Binary—More Than Once
Coming out is rarely a single moment. For many of us, it’s a lifetime of choices. Conversations. Corrections. Sometimes it’s loud. Sometimes it’s silent. Sometimes it doesn’t happen at all.
And for non-binary people, coming out often means navigating a world that doesn’t have a preset path for us. It’s not just a declaration: it’s a cycle. A risk. A reclaiming. A deeply personal ritual that we may revisit dozens of times throughout our lives.
My journey began long before I had the words. The first time I came out wasn’t the last. And it certainly wasn’t the hardest.
The First Time: Naming the Self
Before I ever came out or even knew what “non-binary” meant, I was already reckoning with my gender identity and expression. For a long time, I saw myself as just a gay man. That label felt safe, or at least known. Later, I leaned into “queer,” which gave me a bit more space. But even then, I started questioning what queerness actually meant to me. What did it mean if I didn’t really feel like a man? That question frightened me.
I grew up in the Deep American South, where even coming out as gay was dangerous, where difference could cost you everything. The idea that I might be trans, or fall into another gender entirely, was terrifying. I didn’t know what that would mean for my life, my safety, my future. I didn’t want to be a target. I didn’t want to be a symbol. I just wanted to be.
And yet, the truth was there, quiet, persistent. I had spent years dreaming of expressing myself freely, outside the rigidity of gender norms. Sometimes I felt pulled toward femininity. Other times I was pushed into traditional masculinity, and it always felt like wearing someone else’s clothes. When I started confronting my gender, I realised: I didn’t feel like a man. I didn’t see myself as one. I never had. I always felt a subtle discomfort when someone referred to me in this way. As if that label could define who I am. It can’t. It never could.
But admitting I wasn’t a man opened a door I wasn’t ready to walk through. If I’m not a man… then what am I? A trans woman? That thought scared the hell out of me, not because I looked down on trans women, but because I knew how society treats trans women. I knew the violence they face. The erasure. The hate. And I didn’t want that for myself. I didn’t feel brave enough.
I also thought to myself, if I’m not a man… what is my sexuality? I had come to express myself as gay, or queer. What if the exploration of my gender leads to this change? I didn’t know what it would mean—or how to explain it. And god forbid… did that make me straight?
Then I heard about being non-binary. And at first? Honestly, it didn’t click. I thought, Wait—what? That’s a thing? You can just… exist outside of male and female? Or as both? Or neither? It blew my mind. And not in a good way. It made me uncomfortable.
When I met non-binary folks for the first time, I approached with respect, but also unease. I thought the discomfort meant their identity didn’t make sense to me. But what I came to realise was that it made too much sense. It was the first time I saw something that mirrored what I’d buried inside myself.
It took time. So much time. Fear. Processing. Grief, even. But eventually, I found the words. This is who I am. I’m non-binary.
Yes, I was scared. But being authentic is rarely easy. I’d already been through the fire before. I’d faced verbal abuse, physical threats, and structural discrimination. So what’s one more round? I could keep sitting in fear of others, of myself. Or I could do what I’ve always done: tell the truth. Start with the people I love. And then, step by step, share it with the world.
Coming out to myself was the first step. And it wasn’t a single moment. It was a whole process—a deeply emotional, slow and unfolding one. When I first came out as non-binary, I thought I had to correct everyone. Every pronoun slip. Every assumption. I felt like I had to be loud, that I had to educate. I believed I had to share my pronouns in every setting, always, no matter the emotional cost.
What I didn’t realise then was just how exhausting that would become. I didn’t understand how much it would take from me to keep coming out again and again—to friends, to family, to uni, to the workplace, to strangers in passing. I thought I could manage it all. But I didn’t account for how it would wear me down.
With time, and with plenty of mistakes, I came to understand something deeper:
For non-binary people, coming out isn’t just a one-time declaration. It’s cyclical. It’s situational. It’s deeply personal.
And yes—it’s exhausting.
The Many Times After: Contextual Coming Outs
Coming out to myself was hard enough. But what followed was something I hadn’t fully prepared for: doing it again. And again. And again.
Because when you're non-binary, coming out doesn’t stop with a single moment. It happens in layers. It’s shaped by context. It shifts depending on where you are, who you’re with, what’s at stake, and how much energy you have to spare.
To Family
Family holds history. Expectations. Sometimes love, sometimes silence. For me, coming out as non-binary to family meant confronting generational gaps, religious undertones, and inherited ideas about gender. Some accepted me with open arms. Others resisted or didn’t understand. A few just ignored it altogether.
It hurt. Like really hurt. Through my coming out I lost family. Even with family that stayed in my life how I opened up to them or how they showed up for me, changed. This was not a fast step in my journey and not one-and-done. Educating the family on non-binary identity or gender diversity in general can be difficult and repetitive.
But, with time, I learned that not every family member has the capacity to see you. And not everyone deserves that clarity. I came to realise I didn’t need to convince my whole family to validate me. I didn’t need to educate them all. I only need to surround myself with those who try. Those that want to see me, fully.
To Friends
Friendships shifted—some deepened, others faded.
Some friends instantly said, “Got it. What are your pronouns?”
Others struggled, misgendered me constantly, or made jokes when it wasn’t theirs to make. And then there were the quiet ones, who didn’t say anything at all. Silence, too, speaks.
Coming out changed the way I evaluated my relationships. Some friends grew with me. Others, I let go.
In the Workplace
Workplaces are one of the trickiest areas. You’re balancing identity, professionalism, legal frameworks, and your basic livelihood. Coming out at work meant changing email signatures, submitting HR forms, correcting people in meetings, or sometimes deciding not to.
I learned that on some days, I have the energy to advocate, remind, and educate. On other days, I want to get through my job in peace. Not every setting is safe or worth the fight. And that’s okay.
In Public
There’s a vulnerability in being visibly queer in public. Walking into a gendered bathroom. Handing over a passport with a photo that no longer feels like you. Choosing which pronouns to use for a barista or a border agent. Wondering what’s safe.
Travel, especially, adds layers. For me, travelling means navigating spaces that will always see me as “M” no matter what. And sometimes, for safety, I let them. Not everywhere is safe to be yourself fully. It doesn’t make me or you less non-binary. It makes us human.
To Yourself (Again)
And then… there’s the quietest, most persistent part: coming out to yourself again.
Identity isn’t static. It grows, shifts, and evolves. I’ve gone through phases where I questioned my pronouns. I wondered if I’d ever be “non-binary enough.” Where I wanted to reclaim femininity, then androgyny, then softness, then strength.
There’s no finish line. No final definition. Just an ongoing relationship with yourself, your body, your becoming. Coming out—again—isn’t a failure. It’s a return. It’s a re-rooting. A reminder that you get to change and still be valid.
Emotional Realities of Repeated Coming Out
There’s a kind of grief that follows coming out, especially when you have to keep doing it. At first, I thought coming out would feel like freedom. And sometimes, it does. However, I didn’t expect the amount of emotional labour that would come with it. The explaining. The correcting. The educating. The defending. The pretending not to care when someone ignores it. The deciding when to speak, and when to stay silent, for safety, or just to survive the day.
Repeated coming out wears on you. It’s not just a conversation—it’s a calculation.
Will they take me seriously? Will they laugh? Will I be safe? Do I have the energy to deal with this right now?
There are days I feel strong and confident in who I am, grounded in my truth. But there are also days when it’s just… exhausting. Where I want to scream, “I’ve already told you.” It’s hard not to internalise that. To start questioning if you’re the problem.
But I’ve learned: I’m not. And neither are you.
This isn’t just about pronouns or presentations—it’s about how society still refuses to make room for us. Coming out again and again isn’t a performance. It’s a survival strategy. And that shouldn’t be our burden alone.
At the same time, there is power in repetition. Every time I affirm who I am—whether aloud or just internally—I reclaim a little more space. And yes, dysphoria and euphoria can coexist. I’ve felt restless over being misgendered in public. Whether purposefully or just perception. I’ve also felt joy when a friend used “they” without hesitation.
Each moment, each interaction is a reminder: I’m still here. I’m still me.
Tools for Reclaiming Power in the Process
I used to think I had to come out perfectly. That if I didn’t say something clearly, kindly, and confidently, I’d lose my chance to be seen. I’ve since let go of that idea. Coming out doesn’t need to be perfect. It needs to be yours.
Here are some of the ways I’ve learned to reclaim power throughout the process, especially when the world feels unkind or confusing:
1. Set Boundaries
You don’t owe anyone your identity. You don’t have to explain your pronouns to strangers or justify your gender to your boss. Scripts help. Things like:
“These are my pronouns. Please use them.”
“I’m not open to discussing that right now.”
“I’d rather focus on the work at hand.”
Sometimes, saying less is saying enough.
2. Choose When Not to Come Out
There is strength in not coming out. Safety comes first. Peace of mind matters. If you’re in a situation where being misgendered or misunderstood feels less harmful than the fallout, that is still your choice. And it is valid. You are still non-binary even if no one in the room knows.
You don’t owe anyone an explanation unless you want to.
3. Find Your Community
The people who get it are everything. Online or in person, community is where I’ve found breath when the world made me hold mine. Whether it’s group chats, Discord servers, Tumblr, comment sections, or late-night convos, being seen by people like you changes everything. You don’t have to go through this alone.
To be non-binary is to participate in a collective experience of diverse identities.
4. Language Is Power
The words we use to describe ourselves are tools, not cages. If your pronouns change, if your style shifts, if your label evolves, you are not inconsistent. You are alive. Use what works. Drop what doesn’t. You are the only authority on your identity.
5. Visibility vs. Privacy
I used to think I had to be visible to be valid. However, I now realise that privacy is sacred too. Sometimes I post something. Sometimes with a subtle shift in my email signature. Sometimes with nothing at all. Every situation is different. Every choice is personal.
Being non-binary doesn’t mean being a billboard. It means being you. Loudly, quietly, or somewhere in between.
A Message to Those Still Coming Out (or Doing It Again)
If you’re still figuring it out-or figuring it out again, I want you to know:
You’re not behind. You’re not late. You’re not alone.
Coming out isn’t linear. It’s not something you “finish.” It’s something we carry. Something we return to when the time is right. Or when the world asks us to. Or when we ask ourselves to.
You don’t need to come out to everyone. You don’t need to have it all figured out. Your gender isn’t a PowerPoint presentation. Gender is a lived, breathing thing. It’s allowed to change. To contradict itself. To surprise you. To not make sense to anyone but you.
Take your time. Be messy. Be scared. Be soft. Be fierce. Be quiet. Be loud. Be whatever you need to be to get through. There is no right way to be non-binary. There is only your way.
You are not a burden for needing to come out more than once. You are not a failure for choosing when not to. You are not less valid because someone else doesn’t understand.
Every time you show up in the world as yourself, however that looks, you’re doing something brave. And even when you don’t? You’re still whole. Still worthy. Still you.
You are allowed to take up space. You are allowed to take your time.
And you are allowed to come out as many times as it takes.
Closing Reflection on Coming Out as Non-Binary
Coming out as non-binary, over and over again, has taught me more about resilience than I ever wanted to learn. In the early days, even hearing he/him felt like a betrayal. It made my skin crawl. How could someone look at me and see a man? I tried so hard to style myself queer enough, soft enough, ambiguous enough that no one could mistake it. But even then, I felt invisible in a new way. Like I was performing queerness for recognition which is just another form of erasure.
Eventually, I stopped chasing visibility on other people’s terms. I realised: I don’t need to be understood by everyone. I don’t need every stranger, colleague, or acquaintance to get it. I get it. My friends get it. The family that matters gets it. Most importantly, I accept me. And no misgendering, misunderstanding, or silence can take that away.
Yes, coming out is constant. But it’s also personal. Sometimes I’ll correct someone. Other times, I’ll let it slide. Not because it doesn’t matter, but because I matter more, and I get to decide what I need in each moment.
I no longer feel the need to speak my identity in every room I walk into. I don’t need to prove I exist. I do. We do.
Coming out isn’t about validation. It’s about sovereignty. And one day, I hope we live in a world where no one has to “come out” at all as I hope our existence won’t need explaining. Until then, we keep going. We keep choosing. We keep becoming.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you. You’re not alone in this. You never were. And if you ever need a reminder: You’re real. You’re enough. You’re already whole.
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